how does he know me so well?

the other day I had a very strong urge to end my life , i called my father to  ask him to promise me  he would  find Cobee a good place to live if  some thing were to happen to me. As a father would he  could not  just say yes,  he  wanted to make it better, but  he  could not. From that moment  till now my pal Cobee  would not leave my side  he  was in  my space  every step almost, even in the shower 2 times that day. I have nothing to give him near as  great as his  devotion to me. I love  you Cobee. 
And thank you God  for  showing  me  the secret you did that afternoon  after the snow storm and the  sun   shone from through the gray clouds, and I saw beyond me . and the darkness inside  was gone.

Another season brings deeper roots to this life I am glad I did not destroy

Ah! Nature,
the bursting spring
Rebirthing the earth's bounty she holds me to her soil,
Water streaming keeps my will alive,
I think i know what going on.
Cobee, he jumps, he barks, he chews and races himself as far as the walls will allow.
And though at times Cobee cries for more of me, and I feel distracted, he takes me to where I will grow beyond.
Far from my own limited consciousness. How could have known?
How could I ask for more?
Even more,
How can I ever serve him like he so effortlessly serves me?

time spent

I feel like  life is passing by  and when I look into my dog's eyes  I am instantly reminded how I have not taken much time to  really connect with my best friend, and one day one of us will be looking at the other's dead  eyes. There is not one moment  I have with Cobee that has any capacity to be controlled, predicted  or bought.  This is the love of my life.  If not  for his entrance into my life , I would be dead,  love dead! Thank you , dear Cobee, for loving  me  with all your  heart,  with no  hesitation and  endlessly ...  I love you  so  much, I hope you know  it!